Most people treat depression as if the depressed person sat down in a room, weighed out the pros and cons, and decided being depressed was a great option.
You’re not fake simply because you act differently depending on the person you’re with. Different personalities bring out different aspects of your personality. You’re complex and multidimensional; it’s beautiful.
in anthropology this is called “code switching” and it is a completely natural thing that pretty much everyone does.
Aka. This is called being an adult and learning how to interact with different groups of people.
And it’s shitty that I was considered mature and praised for those things, and all of those characteristics have translated into me being an immature, “bad adult.”
Now I
Have difficulty making a keeping friends
Can’t act without permission/am dependent on others for direction
Am terrible at communicating
Have no agency/personal compass
It’s a really difficult thing for people who were abused as children to grapple with.
What made us good children make us bad adults.
