Some things I’ve learned in the CBT clinics I’ve been going to regarding anxiety that I thought might be helpful to some.
I need to show that panic disorder one to a lot of people wow
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I’ve never seen a post about social anxiety which includes the bit about being REALLY outgoing in order to mask imperfections, which is EXACTLY what I do. This is a really great overview of the different anxieties and phobias.
I made a Berry track during my hiatus (which I am still on because life is still hell).
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I’ll probably add/remove songs with time. And srry it’s pretty shitty I’ve never done this before//
I theorized over the last couple days about the Gems having known Lapis was trapped in that mirror, but having watched both Mirror Gem and Ocean Gem and had some time to think, it just keeps getting darker, because I’ve come to the tentative conclusion that while Amethyst and Garnet knew, Pearl didn’t.
Think about how the three reacted to the news that Steven had woken up the gem in the mirror.
Garnet reacted with shock initially:
Then wariness:
Then she tries to take control of the situation and lies to Steven:
And, finally, rage, overpowering her love for Steven:
Then, take Amethyst. Initially, shock:
Then, most tellingly of the gems’ reactions, guilt:
Then the same wariness as Garnet:
Then rage herself, to a degree that freaks Steven out:
Now, Amethyst’s lack of a poker face combined with the extreme reactions she and Garnet have made me think that the pair knew who Lapis was (or at least that there was a dangerous gem sealed in the mirror) but it didn’t seem to add up. Why react that strongly to a prisoner? It may have been a justified imprisonment, to be fair, but they wouldn’t react this strongly unless they were the ones doing the imprisoning.
Now, that’s all fair enough. We’ve seen how dangerous Lapis was, and if Amethyst and Garnet had to imprison her, they had to imprison her. What is disturbing is that Pearl genuinely doesn’t seem to be aware that there’s an intelligent gem involved at all.
Initial reaction: shock.
Then, unlike Garnet and Amethyst, who immediately recover and act like they know what’s going on, confusion:
Then, dawning realization turning to horror:
And then the real kicker happens–this line right here:
“Garnet!” Amethyst hisses, “Do something!”
Who are they looking at in that shot? Are they looking at the mirror, the dangerous Gem they’re so afraid of? Are they looking at Steven, their innocent son, who’s the one in danger/ready to free Lapis right now?
No.
They’re looking at Pearl…
…because she’s putting the pieces together.
Look at the symbolism of the entire scene. Garnet and Amethyst are watching Pearl play out one of her neuroses, alternating between teasing her and trolling her. They are separate from Pearl in almost every shot in this room; together, they are watching Pearl act exactly as they expect, and doing nothing to correct the situation.
Here’s what I think happened: I think Garnet and Amethyst, with or without Rose, were involved in the imprisonment of Lapis. I’m not casting judgment on that; I don’t have enough information to conclude whether it was justified or not. Then–and this is what I am judging–then they gave the mirror to Pearl for safekeeping, knowing that she wouldn’t think enough of the mirror to try to talk to it, thinking it was just a device, something to use and store away as she saw fit. They gave it to Pearl because they knew she’d never think to free Lapis. They made Pearl her jailor without her knowledge or consent.
And that’s gonna make me leery of these two for a long time to come.
In all the times I watched this episode, I never once noticed that Garnet and Amethyst had reacted to Pearl’s own reaction. This makes a lot of sense, though.
Another thing is that, at the beginning of Ocean Gem, Pearl expresses her shock with the situation, saying “How could I have known that the Gem contained in that mirror would be so powerful?” However, her question never gets a reply, as Garnet looks over to Steven, diverting Pearl’s attention as well. Blink and you’ll miss it, but it’s there.
Also note that, in that same shot, Amethyst is sitting directly behind Garnet, as if she wanted Garnet to handle talking to Pearl.
I’m finally back after my long break away from YouTube. I’ve had time enough to grieve and collect myself and will be slowly easing myself back into making videos for you guys. Thank you for the endless support during this tragic time.
Better computer in general. I’m gonna have to wait until november or december to get a decent SSD but a hard drive should do well until then. My new computer is my birthday present to myself.
I am Silver Tongue, I am an artist. I have many characters and you can check out my art in the art tag. I occasionally practice witchcraft though I don't do anything too complicated. I am girl 2 and don't know what else to put here.
