I do not mean to sound like I am starting drama, but…

What’s the point of telling someone you’re still friends and then choose to break mostly all forms of contact? To ignore them mostly and hardly say anything?
I know I’m not a good person, but damn, I try to be one.
I try.

I’m not sure how to get my words out of my head properly. 
I’m just fucked up right now…

I’m hanging on by a thread and I don’t want this friendship to crumble…