theasexualityblog:

a-caskett-of-my-ships:

-Constantly questioning what emotions I’m feeling                                                   -No wait, Questioning everything I’ve ever felt in a situation the involved              people

-Wondering if I’m not                                                                                           -Wondering if Coming Out was a good idea because I could be wrong

-Wondering if I will ever be able to have a healthy relationship

-Wondering what sexual attraction feels like BECAUSE WHAT IF I HAVE          EXPERIENCED IT

-Wondering if I’m also aro?????

-Thinking about how I’m probably just trying to be special

-Wondering if I should ever say something to my parents

-Trying to think of creative ways to show pride that aren’t glaringly obvious 

-Admiring my ace ring (It’s really great)

-Feeling lost

-The tears on my pillow case

-Feeling left out every time some people start trying to talk about an attractive     butt                                                                                                                   -THINKING THE BUTT THING WAS A JOKE

-Feeling the words stick in my throat every time I try to say it directly to               someone

-Hearing someone I love say “Everyone’s got to be special you know what I         mean?” when a branch of asexuality get mentioned

-Continuously wonder if I’m actually pan???? honestly

-Getting nervous during truth or dare when someone asks about your crush

-Trying to decipher the difference in feelings

-Feeling like everything I do is false

 -Crying alone because I don’t know 

 -Feeling lost 

 -Wanting a relationship but thinking no one will want me 

 - Fearing myself and my feelings 

 -Feeling vaguely uncomfortable around some relationships 

 -Wanting nothing more but to feel whole 

 -Loving my friends -Learning new words constantly 

 -Connecting to some Ace stories, and not others 

 -Confusing myself with what I want

-A vocabulary lesson

-Finding a home in a world where I feel comfortable

It’s literally the same way for me on the VAST majority of these points.

You’re not alone and you’re 100% valid