yourfictionmyreality:

demiwritersblock:

reotheleo:

Can I just say, uh, I’m pretty sure noticing you’re asexual is harder than noticing you’re gay, straight, pan or otherwise. Like, I just read someone’s desciption of hitting puberty and, like, there’s nothing like that. There’s no sudden ‘boob’ moment, no sudden ‘fuck, I’d fuck that’ moment, not sudden anything. You just, like, plod on through life as usual going ‘oooh, that’s pretty, I’d like that hair’ or ‘oooooh, they’re nice, I’d like to be close to them’ but there’s no like, ‘oh, someone would want to fuck that but I don’t’, you know? You just- you don’t notice, you don’t realise everyone else has ‘had a moment’ but you haven’t, you just- keep going as you always have.

And then, much much later, you start to wonder why people are getting so caught up in drama for romance or sex, like, why bother? It’s not worth it, they’re not worth it, why are you doing stupid things for something that’s so- and then you wonder if there’s something wrong with you, start mentally over compensating. Like ‘uh, okay, um, who should I date? Who can I stand to date? Who could I stand to fuck?’ like- it’s not, it’s not something you want, but you want to fit in, to be normal.

Sometimes you don’t even know that you’re doing it.

Sometimes you don’t even know asexual’s a thing.

I dunno, I guess, I just feel like, uh, people should understand more?

idk sorry thank you for listening to me

Thank you for perfectly describing it.

It’s way more difficult to notice the absence of something, especially when you’ve never had it in the first place??

It’s like being born without a nose and then being expected to understand what things smell like because everyone ELSE has a nose.

There were times I thought I was straight and times I thought I was pan but when I had the person I thought I was meant to be with, I realized after a few dates that I didn’t feel any different from when they were friends. after a few more things, I realized that I didn’t feel any romantic attraction to them. I didn’t feel any sexual attraction to people. I mean, I still felt platonic and even aesthetic attraction to them, but nothing. I thought there was something wrong with me until I could find the name for it. realizing your asexual is just as much of an important self discovery as finding out you’re gay or pan or something