I don’t feel empathy. I don’t.

I understand when a situation is sad. I understand what causes people to feel sad. I also know enough about human interaction to know how you’re supposed to respond when someone feels sad and I even know how to simulate that behavior.

But I don’t feel sad when other people feel sad. It just doesn’t happen.

No matter how closely I know a person, I can’t manage to have their mood influence mine. And I want to be able to do that. I want to be able to support my friends. But I can’t. I usually just feel… inconvenienced by their sadness.

I fail to relate to their inability to move past it. I over-analyze. My brain has already examined the situation and decided that feeling sad is a waste of time. The words “get over it” usually appear in my head more than once. And that scares me. It scares me that I’m incapable of these feelings. It makes me feel like I’m a bad person. A cruel, heartless person.

Just. Had to get that off my chest.