chefpyro:

bad-decisions-imminent:

You don’t just say this not not tell us the song

chefpyro:

*thinks about how in the long run it was a song in Hamilton that allowed me to realise I’m trans* lol that’s pretty cringe

Okay but it needs context.

So in 2015, Hamilton came out. And at that point I was lying. A lot. To everyone I knew online. I was unaware I was trans, I thought I was a man, and due to irrelevant circumstances, I had been telling everyone I was a woman for years. Irony, right. Point is, I felt stuck. I felt like I couldn’t come clean without hurting the friendships I’d built up over the years. And it was hurting me, not being able to be more open towards people I considered my friends.

And then Hamilton released. And I was pretty into it, listened to the soundtrack more than a couple times. Some of those songs get stuck in your head. And one night, as I was laying in bed, stressing myself out over my predicament, the particular song I had stuck in my head was ‘Hurricane’. The specific lyrics that matter here are “I’ll write my way out. Overwhelm them with honesty.”

So I grabbed my laptop, wrote about 3 paragraphs, detailing everything I’d done wrong and lied about over the past years, and posted it. And yes, it was messy and painful, but I’d come clean. And in the years that followed, no longer pretending to be a woman allowed me to realize… I preferred being a woman. And I realized I was trans.

The irony here is of course that originally that song was about Hamilton trying to find a way out of getting blackmailed because of his affair because he’s a big thot. But yknow, shit happens.