are any three little words more romantically devastating than “Not like this”
the bone deep agony of someone wanting something so, so, so badly and finally having it within reach but knowing that they’d never forgive themselves if they got it in This way, if they took it or were given it when it couldn’t last or wasn’t real or the other person is only giving for the wrong reasons, maybe doesn’t actually want Them, just Someone…
and having to say that they want this but…. but not like this.
You get it!!
Saying it desperately, brokenly, practically begging, knowing they have to stop this, have to get those three words out before they give in and accept this, even knowing they’d hate themselves if they did… Or worse, knowing the other person would hate them if they did… Ugghh
So many torturous ways. Is it said just before that first kiss they’ve been longing for for centuries and they have to pull away or make an excuse or just run lest they give in.
Or is it after that moment, it coming as a shock and they want so badly to given in and open up and just take but they couldn’t, they’d never be able to stop and it would kill them, like giving a dying man a sip of water before snatching it away.
How terrible and cruel the world must be to be so close and yet how very wrong it is, like this.
I hate each and every one of you, fucking stop this madness and let me LIVE