The way they don't process how the immediate influx of cash can, if used right, lead to getting the book, or having the credit score, or even having an actual meeting with a celebrity (since he's also a businessman) is always gonna stab my brain the wrong way

Capitalism is a hell of a drug.

You're not "built different" because you think "hustling" for every measley little dollar is better than having a life where you can actually do what you want without fear of starvation, you've been brainwashed.