deoxyrebornicleic:

I have no sympathy at all.

I lie when I say “ I feel so bad for you ”. I’m sorry, I just, I’m literally incapable of feeling bad for someone. I cannot, I legit just cannot. Not even for those close to me. No matter how hard I try, I just cant.

I don’t feel sorry for anyone, I CAN’T feel sorry for anything. Yes, I can UNDERSTAND how it feels but I can’t actually FEEL BAD for them. I hate saying “ I’m feel so sorry for you ” because I really dont.

Yes, I wish nothing but good upon those going through hardship.
Yes, I try my best to help them with how much I can of my ability.
Yes, I try to at least attempt to lift their mood.
No, I do not feel bad in the slightest because of their situation.

I’m really sorry. I dont know what’s wrong with me, I can understand others but I just can’t feel sympathy but at the same time I do want to help and do wish nothing but good for them.

I’ve been lying about this sympathy bullshit for so many years I just keep hiding it because I can’t bare the thought of people thinking I’m some kind of villain or something.

but now it’s really been heavy on my back and shoulders and I honestly can’t carry that weight of lie anymore.

I understand if you don’t like me as a friend anymore or start hating me, I’m really trying to feel SOMETHING but I just can’t, but I wish good for you. sorry.