...What? I mean I'd ask what happened but it apparent you don't want to talk about it. This sounds like something completely out of the ordinary, but you can't just not sleep. You should fix this, and get help. This wasn't a "permanent" thing was it? Cause if it was it wasn't. There's no such thing as permanent hypnosis. I've used hypnosis and yeah it can do creepy things but we aren't that good yet. If it's serious and you need help reach out.
Oh no, it’s nothing like that.
I was trying to do lucid dreaming through self hypnosis sunday night and it sort of worked but not really. Part of the way they get you into the dream aware is by having you dream about lying in your bed so you can’t tell when the dream starts but look for signs that there’s a dream (hard time counting fingers, clocks going wrong, etc) and there was a point where I couldn’t move and it felt like someone was tapping the back of my neck. I sleep facing the wall so my back is facing my room and for all I knew, there could have actually been someone there.
It just freaked me out a bit is all so I’m staying away from self hypnosis for a while.
Do you practice any of the ritualistic side of LeVayan Satanism?
I’m really proud with you coming out as trans! ^w^ I wish you luck on your transition, and I’m sure you’re going to be absolutely adorable!! I understand how you feel, being trans myself. And BTW I noticed that your description states that you’re an atheistic satanist. I know a little bit about that religion and I think it’s perfectly lovely. I’m an agnostic theist who’s interested in religions so I thought I could get your input about the ideology and your story behind joining it. I’m sure I could do lots of research about it, but having a discussion with someone about something has it’s own rewards that research doesn’t have to offer.
Thank you. I’ve already had some obstacles such as the fact that Doctors are so expensive and I don’t want to have this show up on my medical insurance because then my father will find out and I know I will have to tell him some day but I want it to already be too late for him to find do anything about it.
Also, about my religion, LaVeyan Satanism is where god and satan are more symbols than actual beings. The gist of what it’s about is that I am my own goddess. I worship myself and I am in charge of my own destiny. I choose my own fate and I’m responsible for my actions. It’s about glorifying oneself while at the same time understanding that nobody else is responsible for the actions of someone.
Thank you for the support.
