I just want everything to be good again

Every time I try and fix things I make things worse I lose more friends

fuck this year

I am so tired

that doesn’t help. Believe me, if I had a choice I wouldn’t choose this.

fuck everything.

I’ve lost four friends within the last month, four people that I trusted and I don’t even know why for most of them. I mean, for fucks sake, I was talking to one of them just the other day, asking what they want for their birthday.

Please, if you have a problem with me, tell me so I can fix it. Don’t just disappear without saying anything because then I don’t know what went wrong.

all my friends are leaving me and I don’t know why

I want to dream about deers. I haven’t dreamed about them since that one time and I miss them.